Our conversation.

Im not really complaining anymore because I dont really play ET anymore but. Here's a nice little conversation from a long time ago.

Im the one with the correct spelling. =)





Me: Didnt you apply for *HoF* and get denied?
And if you didnt already get denied, wouldnt that mean your applying for two clans?
I also read in the forums that many people called you a "Clan Hopper" because you would join clans for a week or so and just leave.
If your going to continue this please don't iLo with your application if your just going to leave.


Elite: 1. i dont play anymore
2. who are you and now? you have a problem?
3. shut up n00b


Me: Lol.
I asked you this a long time ago.
And im [iLo]Pabizzle


Elite: LoL.....
you think I'm gonna respect you becuse you iLo....
Man you should watch your mouth... I'm sure kamil prefer me then you so stfu ... you a false iLo guy ....


Elite: YEAH!!!! GOOD BOY thats right shut up... And wtf are you doing? where are you? you dant play anymore????? OHHHOHOHOHOHOH .......NOT!!!!!
you know i like that clan ynd if i could i yould throw you out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
eL!Te

thanks Pablo, wow thats interesting.
And theres my conversation with old friend :

dimitri737: Hi.
[iLo]=Kamil=: who are u . sorry
dimitri737: I had to take a little vacation, so forgive me if I have no idea- Who the hell are you?
dimitri737: ....
[iLo]=Kamil=: and u ?
[iLo]=Kamil=: aaa
[iLo]=Kamil=: LOL
[iLo]=Kamil=: hahaah
dimitri737: Well, that puts us in a rather funny predicament.
[iLo]=Kamil=: very.
dimitri737: Very.
[iLo]=Kamil=: ur nick on et ?
dimitri737: I'm Loopy McMuffins.
[iLo]=Kamil=: muffins
dimitri737: McMuffins.
[iLo]=Kamil=: ss muffin
dimitri737: Yes.
[iLo]=Kamil=: sorry
[iLo]=Kamil=: u dont remember me but i found u long time ago
[iLo]=Kamil=: so decided to add
[iLo]=Kamil=: now i remember
[iLo]=Kamil=: ur the on with funny voice
[iLo]=Kamil=: we ll i am [ilo] kamil i was plaing with u a lot on hop..
dimitri737: I don't have a mic.
dimitri737: I don't think you'd be in a position to rate the funniness of my voice.
[iLo]=Kamil=: :]
[iLo]=Kamil=: YOu are not in ss now ?
dimitri737: No.
[iLo]=Kamil=: can I know why?
[iLo]=Kamil=: coz of Ur break?
dimitri737: 'break' is a nice term for three weeks of mental hospitals..
[iLo]=Kamil=: . im sorry.
dimitri737: No worries. Best days of my life.
[iLo]=Kamil=: sure..
[iLo]=Kamil=: what happened ?
dimitri737: The food was better, I preferred the people, and the staff was fairly respectful.
[iLo]=Kamil=: thats ofcourse.
[iLo]=Kamil=: but
[iLo]=Kamil=: why were u at hospital:0 ?
dimitri737: I attacked my evil bitch mother, then faked Schizophrenia to draw out my stay.
dimitri737: Antipsychotics taste minty.
[iLo]=Kamil=: oO
dimitri737: Indeed.
[iLo]=Kamil=: damn it thats sick dude.
dimitri737: It's really the healthiest thing I've ever done for myself.
[iLo]=Kamil=: there is a lot of changes in ET world.
dimitri737: Do tell.
[iLo]=Kamil=: hm
[iLo]=Kamil=: 5 hop server ? what i know.
[iLo]=Kamil=: we ll i have my own
[iLo]=Kamil=: thats why im banned from all HOP
[iLo]=Kamil=: they dont like me now
[iLo]=Kamil=: and banned all my freinds
[iLo]=Kamil=: and
[iLo]=Kamil=: there is HELLSPAWN
[iLo]=Kamil=: its server f HElls
[iLo]=Kamil=: Hellfire, hellmaster...
[iLo]=Kamil=: and
[iLo]=Kamil=: HELLKNIGHT
[iLo]=Kamil=: wont u bacn to ss ?
[iLo]=Kamil=: back*
dimitri737: What the hell is 'ss', anyway?
[iLo]=Kamil=: what?
[iLo]=Kamil=: wern't You /SS/Nubmuffins ?
dimitri737: No..
[iLo]=Kamil=: dont shit
dimitri737: I was Loopy Q. McMuffins.
[iLo]=Kamil=: wtf is wrong with u ?
[iLo]=Kamil=: and You were plaing at what server ?
dimitri737: AoG.
[iLo]=Kamil=: HOLY FUCK
dimitri737: ?
[iLo]=Kamil=: YOu re not person i thought
[iLo]=Kamil=: im sorry
dimitri737: Clearly.
[iLo]=Kamil=: hehe nice to meet u damn
dimitri737: Likewise.
dimitri737: So, how did we meet?
[iLo]=Kamil=: we didnt?
[iLo]=Kamil=: i was looking for other person!!
dimitri737: Ahh.

dimitri737: That explains a fair deal.
[iLo]=Kamil=: yyyyeeesss..
dimitri737: Well, this has been a delightfully random and confusing conversation, I'm going to go cut myself.
[iLo]=Kamil=: won't u play et anymore ?
dimitri737: I can't. Too much lag.
[iLo]=Kamil=: hehehhe yes it was
[iLo]=Kamil=: so.
[iLo]=Kamil=: lag ? why
dimitri737: I don't know. I think my connection cheated on me when I was locked up.
dimitri737: Because now, it's fucked.
[iLo]=Kamil=: hehe
[iLo]=Kamil=: and U must me from us.
[iLo]=Kamil=: as nubmuffin.
dimitri737: I know no 'nubmuffin'.
[iLo]=Kamil=: i know.
[iLo]=Kamil=: sorry sometimes my english well im form europe.
dimitri737: No problem.
[iLo]=Kamil=: haha i hope we ll meet some time
[iLo]=Kamil=: (on xfire :] )
[iLo]=Kamil=: so we can talk or play together
dimitri737: Right.
dimitri737: What country are you from?
[iLo]=Kamil=: RIght!
[iLo]=Kamil=: center europe.
[iLo]=Kamil=: poland..
[iLo]=Kamil=: :0
dimitri737: I see an odd lot of polish people on ET.
[iLo]=Kamil=: i see to
[iLo]=Kamil=: well im not THE ONE
[iLo]=Kamil=: i know that fuckin thing.
[iLo]=Kamil=: but
[iLo]=Kamil=: its just coz there are a lot of em so u may beet odd ones
[iLo]=Kamil=: ok nvm
dimitri737: Heh.
dimitri737: I meant that the amount I meet is odd, not the people themselves.
[iLo]=Kamil=: well
dimitri737: They *are* odd. But we all are.
[iLo]=Kamil=: :]
[iLo]=Kamil=: when u have time visit - Hey!Oranges server
[iLo]=Kamil=: its mine
[iLo]=Kamil=: i can tell u
[iLo]=Kamil=: lot of fun
dimitri737: I'll try that, now. I'll probably lag incredibly.
[iLo]=Kamil=: i was working at half year.
[iLo]=Kamil=: noo u wont!!
[iLo]=Kamil=: wanna try now ?
[iLo]=Kamil=: would be so cool
dimitri737: Give me the IP.
[iLo]=Kamil=: ok
[iLo]=Kamil=: a sec.
[iLo]=Kamil=: ęęłęó87.230.57.114:27962
[iLo]=Kamil=: 87.230.57.114:27962
[iLo]=Kamil=: :p
dimitri737: Ooo..kay..
dimitri737: I'll try that, now.


dimitri737: Not working.
[iLo]=Kamil=: woot?
[iLo]=Kamil=: how come ?
dimitri737: ?
[iLo]=Kamil=: u play et 2.55 ?
dimitri737: No. I hate the number 255.
[iLo]=Kamil=: aaaa
[iLo]=Kamil=: thats why
[iLo]=Kamil=: coz it works on 2.55
[iLo]=Kamil=: what u play on ?
dimitri737: Not 2.55, apparantly.
[iLo]=Kamil=: install it.
[iLo]=Kamil=: or whatever YOu want.
dimitri737: I'll try that.
[iLo]=Kamil=: yeeeh right.
dimitri737: Would 260 work?
dimitri737: I really do hate the number 255.
[iLo]=Kamil=: nope sorry
[iLo]=Kamil=: u have to like it again
dimitri737: I can't. Not after what it did to me.
[iLo]=Kamil=: what did it do ?
[iLo]=Kamil=: install it and dont look at number
dimitri737: It.. it.. It's too horrible to say..
[iLo]=Kamil=: say dont be gay
[iLo]=Kamil=: ?
dimitri737: It's the limit to every self-made counting mechanism on Starcraft.
dimitri737: Everything caps out at 255.
dimitri737: It's awful.
dimitri737: It tormented me for years.
dimitri737: It has something to do with data appropriation..
dimitri737: Gameboy things cap at 255, too.
[iLo]=Kamil=: damn.

And theres 2nd part:

dimitri737: That's why I'll always hate the numbers 255 and 99, 999, 9999, etc.
[iLo]=Kamil=: but its 2.55 :
[iLo]=Kamil=: hehe
dimitri737: It's.. It's too close.
dimitri737: I'm not ready.
[iLo]=Kamil=: how old are U ?
dimitri737: 15.
[iLo]=Kamil=: are u guy ?
dimitri737: Yep.
dimitri737: Wait..
dimitri737: Gay, or a guy?
[iLo]=Kamil=: muffins was a girl.
[iLo]=Kamil=: guy...
dimitri737: Right.
dimitri737: Yep.
dimitri737: Where is this fabled muffins?
[iLo]=Kamil=: nope
[iLo]=Kamil=: idk
[iLo]=Kamil=: she it away too
dimitri737: I'll tell you if I see her in my next mental hospital.
[iLo]=Kamil=: haha
dimitri737: When people go 'away' from games, it's almost always to prison or a psyche ward.
dimitri737: Remember that.
dimitri737: They tried to brainwash me. It was awesome.
[iLo]=Kamil=: i will damn.
dimitri737: They kept us too bored, though.
dimitri737: The trick to brainwashing is to make sure your subject doesn't have time to think about anything, but the things you tell them to think about.
[iLo]=Kamil=: damn nice.
dimitri737: But they diddn't give us things to do. Inbetween the moral lessons, there were gaps of aching free time, where we did the incredible- what noone in such a facility should do-
dimitri737: We thought.
dimitri737: We thought about fire.
[iLo]=Kamil=: dude i feel so weird ur talkint this all to me.
dimitri737: We thought about breaking things.
[iLo]=Kamil=: thats not good.
dimitri737: We thought about violence.
dimitri737: We thought about sex and freedom and fun and happiness.
dimitri737: These are not thoughts for a mental hospital.
dimitri737: They made eachother more entertaining than other things. That was also a very big mistake.
dimitri737: You can't have your psych patients entertaining eachother. We're bad influences.
dimitri737: We're doublebad newthinkers.
dimitri737: There was an eleven year old kid who kept.. mimicing me.
[iLo]=Kamil=: ur such an idiot. u think to much dude. dont u think ?
dimitri737: I do think too much, but that doesn't make me an idiot.
[iLo]=Kamil=: well what u say u had good times there.
dimitri737: These are just my thoughts, spilling out from that big, black void of time and space where they left me to think.
dimitri737: I suppose I did. The people were interesting.
dimitri737: There's just so much less superficiality, there.
[iLo]=Kamil=: im very.
dimitri737: You don't see that in the world.
[iLo]=Kamil=: havent ever.
[iLo]=Kamil=: hope not to.
dimitri737: You haven't lived if you haven't seen the inside of a mental hospital.
[iLo]=Kamil=: what u talk , its so mysterious weird :0
dimitri737: I'm a little schizo.
dimitri737: That's why it was very easy for me to fake it.
dimitri737: And I'm also very articulate.
dimitri737: These, combined, give a very odd affect to my communication.
dimitri737: Anyway..
dimitri737: There is a subtle humanity to places like that.
dimitri737: You see suffering.
dimitri737: Real suffering.
[iLo]=Kamil=: suffering from what ?
[iLo]=Kamil=: from prison ?
dimitri737: Life. People go to those places because life screwed them.
[iLo]=Kamil=: from no freinds, normal ppl?
dimitri737: I see the suicidals..
[iLo]=Kamil=: from life.
dimitri737: The homicidals..
dimitri737: The over-medicated, the under-medicated..
dimitri737: The highly intelligent, the severely retarded..
[iLo]=Kamil=: thats right but it screwed em or they screwed emself ?
dimitri737: Just kids, there.
dimitri737: Downstairs, where they keep the adults, there are people who screwed themselves.
[iLo]=Kamil=: so u were in kids mental hospital
[iLo]=Kamil=: ?
dimitri737: But not upstairs in pediatrics. The people there haven't had time and space to screw themselves. They just got screwed.
dimitri737: Yes. I'm fifteen. They seperate the legal minors from the legal adults.
dimitri737: The kid's unit doesn't have alot of really crazy people in it.
dimitri737: Street criminals and common victims.
dimitri737: Nobody abnormal. Though, I suppose we'd like to think it's abnormal.
dimitri737: But really, if you look closely, you can see that kind of sick dysfunction every day.
dimitri737: Oh, and the druggies.
[iLo]=Kamil=: wtf about em ?
dimitri737: They mix them in with us.
dimitri737: Some of them are actually fairly intelligent.
dimitri737: I know why they're there.
dimitri737: They're sick of being themselves.
dimitri737: So, they touched drugs. They made them feel different.
dimitri737: That's what everyone wants in those places, but that's not always how they get it.
dimitri737: Street drugs, prescription drugs..
dimitri737: One way or another, almost everyone there was trying to cure the human condition with chalky tablets and leaded water.
[iLo]=Kamil=: why cant em just enjoy back normal life ?
dimitri737: Normal life has fucked everyone who winds up there.
dimitri737: Normal life is a concept to these people.
dimitri737: They don't have a normal life waiting for them, most of them.
[iLo]=Kamil=: and u ?
dimitri737: Not really.
dimitri737: Mine isn't really as bad as theirs, though.
dimitri737: You really meet alot of interesting people, there.
dimitri737: I met a cop-killer who diddn't look a day older than thirteen.
[iLo]=Kamil=: ..
dimitri737: Some kid who was arrested the day before a school shooting and only failed to kill himself because his gun malfunctioned.
dimitri737: His dad killed his mom and himself when he was nine. He was a very calm person, though.
[iLo]=Kamil=: and why i have to belive it all ?
[iLo]=Kamil=: well i fuckin' do.
dimitri737: Some fat kid with a constant frown and a big, self-inflicted gash on his arm.
dimitri737: A surprisingly sane young woman whose parents visited twice a day to call her a bitch.
dimitri737: Two mental retards, infants trapped in a miserable adult existance.
[iLo]=Kamil=: So You had to have a lot of fun there if You are even in a little normal :]
dimitri737: A burly seventeen year old black man who I would've assumed was stoned, if I diddn't know he was just on 60 miligrams of some mood stabalizer.
[iLo]=Kamil=: or
dimitri737: They had to evacuate our wing when he punched the metal rail out of his dresser with two nails in it..
[iLo]=Kamil=: its so horrible to meet em all.
dimitri737: And spent three hours waiting in his room for someone to come in.
dimitri737: Both, Kamil.
dimitri737: They give you painkillers with a dart gun if you start acting violently.
dimitri737: It's a rational punishment-reward system.
dimitri737: You attack someone, and you get a free hit of opiates.
[iLo]=Kamil=: Do You love oranges?
dimitri737: No.
dimitri737: I like them, though.
[iLo]=Kamil=: ilo - i love oranges
dimitri737: I see.
dimitri737: I got tired of the anti-psychotics.
[iLo]=Kamil=: I love oranges so much. I just can't stop thinking about them. Every minute of every day, my mind is full of oranges. I wish I could just take those oranges out of my mind and eat them.
dimitri737: At first, I diddn't know if they were going to do a mouth check, so I vomited them from my system twice a day.
dimitri737: After three days, I started hiding them under my tongue.
[iLo]=Kamil=: God.
dimitri737: And sliding them in my pocket when noone was looking.
dimitri737: It's called 'cheeking'. There's really a real art to it.
dimitri737: It's not as unpleasant as it sounds.
dimitri737: You just have to know to rinse your mouth, drink something, and brush your teeth when you're done.
dimitri737: For the vomiting, I mean.
dimitri737: I've always had a real knack for centering in on the problems with people.
dimitri737: Alot of kids there just diddn't have a role-modle.
dimitri737: *model
dimitri737: The cop-killer and the 11 year old mimic, for example.
dimitri737: I'm not sure about the cop-killer's parents. I know the 11 year old hates his family, and that his dad in is jail for hitting him.
dimitri737: But they seem so normal on the surface.
dimitri737: But once you've been inside, you look at everyone on the outside the way you look at people on the inside.
dimitri737: You just notice little things.
dimitri737: And suddenly, the world isn't as happy and sane and normal as it is every monday through friday.
[iLo]=Kamil=: are You long haired ?
dimitri737: I will be.
[iLo]=Kamil=: what music?
dimitri737: Anything good.
[iLo]=Kamil=: good means what?
dimitri737: Well-written.
dimitri737: No rap.
dimitri737: Almost no country.
[iLo]=Kamil=: thats fine.
dimitri737: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SmVAWKfJ4Go
[iLo]=Kamil=: well writen enough.
[iLo]=Kamil=: nice.
dimitri737: Listen.
[iLo]=Kamil=: i am
[iLo]=Kamil=: oldschool emo damn. but i like it. i am listening DEEP , dude.
[iLo]=Kamil=: now YOu HAVE TO INSTALL 2.55 im sorry
[iLo]=Kamil=: i need You.
[iLo]=Kamil=: i like what u talk.
dimitri737: I'm flattered.
[iLo]=Kamil=: flattered ?
dimitri737: Complimented.
[iLo]=Kamil=: ok
[iLo]=Kamil=: well
[iLo]=Kamil=: np. i say what i think.
[iLo]=Kamil=: the song gone to the end. " I WILL FIND A WAY"
[iLo]=Kamil=: but
[iLo]=Kamil=: If I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

[iLo]=Kamil=: i like it
[iLo]=Kamil=: so u have to start again dude
[iLo]=Kamil=: u are only 15
dimitri737: Yep.
[iLo]=Kamil=: What are YOu planing ?
dimitri737: I dunno.
dimitri737: I'm very smart. I'm young. I can get money easily enough.
[iLo]=Kamil=: dunno, why ?
[iLo]=Kamil=: :]
[iLo]=Kamil=: get some job,
dimitri737: Not my style.
dimitri737: I'll rob a bank, or something.
[iLo]=Kamil=: mine not too well its the only way if u fucked up ur childhood!
dimitri737: Jobs are uncreative.
[iLo]=Kamil=: so make ur own interess
[iLo]=Kamil=: like selling stemps :p
[iLo]=Kamil=: idk.
dimitri737: And working 9-5, monday-friday from 25 to 60 is a crappy way to live.
dimitri737: First, I rob a bank.
[iLo]=Kamil=: Dude
dimitri737: Then, I move somewhere far away but fairly nice. Like Poland.
[iLo]=Kamil=: It's rly not good idea.
dimitri737: Why not?
[iLo]=Kamil=: Ye come to me
[iLo]=Kamil=: why not ?
dimitri737: Yes. Why isn't bank robbery a good idea?
[iLo]=Kamil=: BEcouse
dimitri737: ...
[iLo]=Kamil=: Becouse what next? will u hiding whole life? wtf
[iLo]=Kamil=: ok u can hide at my house :]
dimitri737: That would work out well enough.
[iLo]=Kamil=: bu
[iLo]=Kamil=: t
dimitri737: I can skip the country, launder the money..
[iLo]=Kamil=: what if they ll catch u ?
[iLo]=Kamil=: before u grab the money ?
dimitri737: Then I'm fucked.
[iLo]=Kamil=: u dont care anymore, ye ?
dimitri737: No.
dimitri737: I care.
[iLo]=Kamil=: fine.
dimitri737: But every reasonable shot at life involves risking getting fucked.
[iLo]=Kamil=: I know You throught and throught now ?
dimitri737: All I'll really need to do is get some expertise with explosives, alarm systems and safe systems.
[iLo]=Kamil=: dont plan it , dude.
dimitri737: You know I.. what? I think something just got lost in translation.
[iLo]=Kamil=: haha
[iLo]=Kamil=: No, dude
[iLo]=Kamil=: i mean
[iLo]=Kamil=: at all You are talking i think that u are imagining bad world.
dimitri737: No, no no.
[iLo]=Kamil=: so u'd better fix it
dimitri737: I don't have time.
dimitri737: That's one of the really pitiful and beautiful things I learned in my mental hospitals.
dimitri737: Some of those kids just needed a stable parent-figure or a good friend. Simple things.
dimitri737: But they're not going to get it.
dimitri737: Every day, people get screwed and messed up and killed because they diddn't get things they should reasonably and could reasonably have.
dimitri737: And if anyone ever came out of denial to that, and had anything more than a sociopath's value of the human spirit..
dimitri737: Their mind would break.
dimitri737: Who could imagine pity, multiplied by something so cold as a number?
dimitri737: Who could value human lives which are made and unmade so easily?
dimitri737: Perhaps you could touch one, two, five.
dimitri737: But there will always be runoff.
dimitri737: There's always going to be someone you could help and can't help.
dimitri737: And you either have to go into denial, or give up.
dimitri737: This isn't my world to fix.
[iLo]=Kamil=: I know that, You can imagine it many different ways but some ways are just not good, I mean You had better stay at 'normal' people way. it s the only thing may keep u standing here, on this world untouchable.
[iLo]=Kamil=: I think.
dimitri737: Screw normal.
[iLo]=Kamil=: DUDE
dimitri737: It's based on delusion and denial and submission and habit.
[iLo]=Kamil=: no.
dimitri737: Yes.
[iLo]=Kamil=: it is but
dimitri737: It's certainly better than alot of what I see..
dimitri737: But I can do better.

And third:

[iLo]=Kamil=: i was on Ur THINKING level too when i was young but now i think im fine
dimitri737: I'm not going to waste my life on something so pitiful and small as 'normal'.
[iLo]=Kamil=: we need habit.
[iLo]=Kamil=: u know?
dimitri737: And who will make our habits for us?
[iLo]=Kamil=: everyone
[iLo]=Kamil=: old ppl keep it
dimitri737: The God and the Society that allows the mosquito?
[iLo]=Kamil=: too?
dimitri737: There is noone to make a good, sane habit for you.
dimitri737: I'm tired of normal. Normal is a safe and stagnant place, and I don't want to go to it.
[iLo]=Kamil=: u think dont we have to adjust ?
dimitri737: I'm really just sick of normal. I want sane.
dimitri737: Adjust to whaT?
dimitri737: Law?
dimitri737: The laws of corruption and common good?
dimitri737: To the wishes of anyone with a nightstick and a head full of fake authority?
dimitri737: We need to adjust to something.
[iLo]=Kamil=: DUDE
[iLo]=Kamil=: nowadays
dimitri737: But it sure as hell isn't floating out there in plain sight.
[iLo]=Kamil=: almost every young guy can understand it
dimitri737: We, as individuals, need to adjust to something better than one dogma or another.
[iLo]=Kamil=: How come You become such weird, (i wont say different)
[iLo]=Kamil=: i mean
[iLo]=Kamil=: the other style of thinking
[iLo]=Kamil=: other way
[iLo]=Kamil=: u know
dimitri737: Yes, I know.
dimitri737: I know Community.
dimitri737: I know Identity.
dimitri737: I know Stability.
dimitri737: I'm an emotionally unstable genius.
dimitri737: I have neither the deep-seeded, personal need or the bland uncreativity for the normal style.
[iLo]=Kamil=: or maybe you just think like this?
[iLo]=Kamil=: other ppl dont think like that
[iLo]=Kamil=: coz the are unnormal?
[iLo]=Kamil=: wild?
dimitri737: Something like that.
[iLo]=Kamil=: habit?
dimitri737: I have no sense of.. culture.
dimitri737: Of community. Of society.
[iLo]=Kamil=: inurement
dimitri737: It's really simple, Kamil.
dimitri737: Most people need philosophy.
[iLo]=Kamil=: Yes, It is i know this all, YOur minds i said u
[iLo]=Kamil=: i was thinking same. rly
dimitri737: Philosophy is the art of finding bad excuses for believing what people believe because of emotional needs.
[iLo]=Kamil=: well didnt meet kinda ppl
[iLo]=Kamil=: but
dimitri737: ... I can really barely understand you.
[iLo]=Kamil=: skateboarding helped me.
[iLo]=Kamil=: and
[iLo]=Kamil=: The music
[iLo]=Kamil=: some of it makes You deeper and deeper in this shit
[iLo]=Kamil=: look
[iLo]=Kamil=: You are thinking to much and You are thinking that You are something better coz You think other way than the others. well it doesnt make u better and maybe its good
[iLo]=Kamil=: but u shuldne express it to much
[iLo]=Kamil=: you know
dimitri737: Why not?
[iLo]=Kamil=: becouse
dimitri737: I'm an American, I can say whatever I'd like.
[iLo]=Kamil=: theese times
[iLo]=Kamil=: You just shouldnt..
[iLo]=Kamil=: look at ppl around
dimitri737: Because people need their stability?
dimitri737: And their delusions and denial and habit?
dimitri737: Is that why?
[iLo]=Kamil=: thats RIGHT
[iLo]=Kamil=: but
dimitri737: Kamil.. Logic is a weak and small thing.
dimitri737: Logic can never beat need.
dimitri737: If people really, really need it, no amount of useless reason will unhinge their closeted reality.
[iLo]=Kamil=: its true too well we should have a lil stabili in us.
dimitri737: Screw stability.
[iLo]=Kamil=: SHIT
[iLo]=Kamil=: stop saind Screw something
[iLo]=Kamil=: coz
[iLo]=Kamil=: i was doing same
[iLo]=Kamil=: and now
[iLo]=Kamil=: i hate it.
dimitri737: Habits come easily.
[iLo]=Kamil=: screw this, screw this damn.
dimitri737: Break them.
dimitri737: I am not a hamster.
dimitri737: Life is not a wheel.
dimitri737: I do not need stability.
[iLo]=Kamil=: sure, break em , fuck em. no! chill , stop! stop thinking so deep wtf are u
dimitri737: I am God, Kamil.
dimitri737: And I'm very dissapointed.
[iLo]=Kamil=: are u Christian?
[iLo]=Kamil=: or what
dimitri737: I worship myself.
[iLo]=Kamil=: not good.
dimitri737: No, very good.
[iLo]=Kamil=: no, very NOT good.
dimitri737: Religion is a system of delusion and denial and habit and surrogate happiness.
[iLo]=Kamil=: You talking lot of true which some ppl just dont understand. You know?
[iLo]=Kamil=: u do.
dimitri737: I know.
dimitri737: I don't need them to understand.
dimitri737: I need to understand. Then get some money.
dimitri737: Go to some.. stable country..
dimitri737: Maybe have some kids. Screw around a while, write some music and some prose..
dimitri737: And die.
[iLo]=Kamil=: tahts a good life but
[iLo]=Kamil=: You have to get money legal :]
[iLo]=Kamil=: thats the only way to have free heart for future life.
dimitri737: No, I found my way.
[iLo]=Kamil=: i mean family or even dying.
dimitri737: My concience is controlled.
dimitri737: And I don't really intend on killing anyone.
dimitri737: Just hitting an armored car or three from some government-insured conglomerate bank.
dimitri737: It's really just the rough equivilant of taxing everyone in the U.S. a penny.
[iLo]=Kamil=: I get it all. But You know that You could be now just a normal kid whose mumy is just giving some food to school and sayng 'love ya'
dimitri737: No normal kid would think my thoughts.
[iLo]=Kamil=: hahah ur wrong
[iLo]=Kamil=: some normal do but
[iLo]=Kamil=: they dont express it so much as u what makes u unnormal?
[iLo]=Kamil=: ..
dimitri737: No. By definition, a kid who thought my thoughts would be abnormal.
[iLo]=Kamil=: yep thats true.
[iLo]=Kamil=: ok look its enough for today
dimitri737: Goodie. I have to write.
dimitri737: You made me think about things.
[iLo]=Kamil=: :]
[iLo]=Kamil=: havent u wrote everything yet?
[iLo]=Kamil=: i think
[iLo]=Kamil=: its all for now
[iLo]=Kamil=: now u need time
dimitri737: Just got home, logged onto Wolfen, lagged out, then talked to you.
[iLo]=Kamil=: to get ur brain up
dimitri737: It's up. I need to get the damn thing out.
[iLo]=Kamil=: shit so ur fresh from m-hospital.
dimitri737: I've still got my bracelet on.
[iLo]=Kamil=: put this shit off and forget.
dimitri737: My name, bar code, age, gender, admission date, doctor, some numbers I don't even recognise..
dimitri737: And written, twice:
dimitri737: PSY PSY
[iLo]=Kamil=: PSY means dogs in my lang :]
dimitri737: Sounds about right.
dimitri737: The staff treats us like rabid dogs that need to be feared and prodded, sometimes.
dimitri737: Other times, they treat us like mindless cattle to prod in one direction or another.
dimitri737: And occasionally, we are broken, crying babies that need fake love and moral lessons.
[iLo]=Kamil=: its 16.00 ur country now, right ?
[iLo]=Kamil=: i mean 4.00
dimitri737: Maybe on the west coast.
[iLo]=Kamil=: and ur from..?
dimitri737: Missouri.
[iLo]=Kamil=: so hats time?
[iLo]=Kamil=: whats*
dimitri737: 3:00 in the midwest.
dimitri737: 2:00 on the east coast.
[iLo]=Kamil=: well
dimitri737: 4:00 on the west coast.
dimitri737: Wait..
dimitri737: Err.. switch the coastal tiems.
dimitri737: *times
dimitri737: 4:00 east, 2:00 west.
[iLo]=Kamil=: its time for me now.
[iLo]=Kamil=: hope to see u later there.
dimitri737: Yes. I have to write, while the memories are fresh.
dimitri737: While the feeling still feel real.
[iLo]=Kamil=: so best when u wake up tomorrow.
dimitri737: I won't sleep.
[iLo]=Kamil=: what are u going to do then ?
dimitri737: Write.
[iLo]=Kamil=: write what
dimitri737: About the last three weeks of my life.
dimitri737: The people I met, the thoughts I thought.
[iLo]=Kamil=: tell me when u have done so i can chech this.
dimitri737: This is my first unrestricted computer access in three weeks, and I need to that to write.
dimitri737: Right.
[iLo]=Kamil=: im interested.
dimitri737: Sure thing.
dimitri737: Give me your email adress.
dimitri737: I'll send it to you once it's all polished.
[iLo]=Kamil=: surethx
[iLo]=Kamil=: kamka3@op.pl
[iLo]=Kamil=: :]
dimitri737: Sure.
[iLo]=Kamil=: so, aammm... night dude. but i think u need a sleep.
dimitri737: There'll be plenty of time for that when I'm dead.
dimitri737: For now, I need to write.
[iLo]=Kamil=: k have fun with it and make it as fascinating as You made me with ur story.
[iLo]=Kamil=: bye
dimitri737: Bye.

OMG too much letter.. i cant read it

ok pablo. i dont want to have bad time here, cuz i like the server the clan and all the people who are hangin around.i dont wanna have a "WaR" with you , its the reason why i appologize for what i told you . but i just want to know why you sneded me that first P.M.
I hope hop it will be better between us... cya

dimitri737: No. I hate the number 255.

Lol i got so good laughs out of those conversations ;DDD really odd ;D